Dear friends,
Thank you so much for stepping into this little corner of the poetry world. :)
Welcome to the fifth installment of The Handless Maiden in Verse! If you missed Parts 1-4, not to worry! They’re linked here:
Re-sharing my blurb from the past few months, too:
I also know a lot is going on right now & I know you feel its residue, too. So I wanted to share some newsletters that help me stay informed (but grounded) amid the slush of social media: The On Canada Project (for other fantastic Substacks, you can see which ones I read & recommend here), The 1440, Reimagined, Collective Rest, Al Jazeera, Press Progress, The Breach, and SAPIENS.
I hope you enjoy this month’s materials. :)
Take gentle, tender care & speak soon.
Gratefully,




The Handless Maiden - Part 5
Deeply on purpose, Retha had hoisted the heavy wall mirror, its foggy glass like the first pour of milk into tea, over her childhood balcony. The final death in a trilogy of youth, stepmothers, and their inverted reflections. This was the evening she’d returned on horseback, to her castle, to collect her things after years away. This was the very same evening she watched Eva’s aching gait creep through the apple orchard. She watched Eva fall to her knees and bend to bite the bruised, tumbled sweetness. Retha winced at Eva’s first taste, expecting, of course, the toxin. But she’d forgotten she was safe now. And though there was a resemblance Retha found in everyone, this woman had no hands... Retha and Eva both caught the castle gardener’s lamp behind the stippled window of his stone home, surrounded by a voluptuous pumpkin and squash patch. It was so dark, this night, that the light found the chimney, rising from it among the smoke of burning cinnamon and rosemary. Where the gardener’s vegetables met the edge of the forest, Eva slipped behind a large pumpkin. Turning her back to the forest’s mesh, she pulled the vines across her body like blankets and slept. Retha closed her balcony windows, and although she’d planned to do her deeds and deftly descend home, she decided to stay the night. She stood with nothing but frosted panes between her body and the unforgiving eve of something. The mirror shards, not quite far enough beneath her, played a game of shadows with reflected moon. *** "Good morning,” a nearly whispered voice slipped through the marbled cracks in the vines with overcast sunlight. Eva startled, chilled under the shade, nearly choking herself in vines. Sleepily, she watched toughened hands grip the living ropes. Oh, how long it had been since she saw human hands. So long; now they frightened her as if the ghosts of spiders. “Please, let me help you out.” The soft voice again. “See, I told you there was a stowaway.” A gruff voice. “No, no. Just the need we try to meet by hiding. Did you recognize Retha this morning? Had she not transformed?" “Retha grew from child to woman. I did not recognize her, no, but I know this being, who has missed woman entirely and reverted, backward, from child to animal." “Is it truly up to us to determine a measure, or direction, or scale of necessary change? Of time? You know what, precisely? What you’re afraid of? Perhaps in better words: where you’ve been before? "She might be dangerous." “Were you?" The gardener, a muscular man cocooned in a blooming brown beard, crossed his arms and harrumphed. “Besides, I believe there’s a kindness born from intimacy with the more-than-human beating our shared flesh and bone, don’t you?" The gardener lifted his chin, narrowed his eyes, and nodded once in muffled agreement with his charming, blackberry-haired king. “It’s taken us a few days to find your spot," offered the kind voice. Eva saw its body now as it added, “If we’d never been so good, once, at hiding ourselves, we’d never have found you." A young king. And a gardener. And another woman, walking towards them through the thick Earth. Eva saw her emerald boots first, grounded in soil clouds. “Please, don’t be afraid.” The king said. "We aren’t. And we won’t hurt you." Eva opened her mouth to reply, but nothing formed beyond a wheeze of breeze, and then a sigh. She’d adopted the language of the trees. The king smiled, as if arriving somewhere warm after a long, cold journey. Retha reached the tender group, and without addressing anyone but Eva, spoke, as if reciting a well-lived truth: "She has immortal spirit now. They may ask her for time to remember how to sift for human along a bilingual spine." Eva looked up at the woman, about her age, with cropped black hair around golden eyes, gently creased and browned like bread almost risen. In Retha’s eyes, loss was yeast, rounding, as she said, “I will stay again. I will show you how.” “There’s plenty of space. And we’re quiet, except for today.” The king offered, gently laughing. But then he frowned. With admiration he reminded, remembered, "Cousin, dear Retha, the Queen we feared is long dead. I only safe-keep the crown; it's still yours, you know?" Retha knelt to Eva, and with her thumbs, wiped old tears turned to salt-crusted stone from her swollen eyes, so used to dilating and navigating unknowns. She stood, held her breath, blinked, and from her pocket, offered Eva a perfectly ripe, red apple. “No, I don’t think it is." To Be Continued...
Before You Go…
Here are a few life-giving poems from some brilliant poets:
The Doubt by Kamala Das
Goodbye Note by Jarod K. Anderson
The Potato FamineStarvation by Pádraig Ó TuamaFlying at Night by Ron Geigle
Making Love to Myself by James L. White
Meditation at Lagunitas by Robert Haas
Eros the Contagion by Annie Kim